When we think about spiritual awakening we generally think of being in a state of bliss, light all around us, and a sense of knowing that surpasses knowledge. All of that does come with awakening but that’s not all. Awakening is an expansion of awareness. Some of that expansion reveals our true nature and qualities, perhaps even abilities we never had access to before. It also includes what has been hidden in the shadows of the subconscious. None of that is what we usually associate with awakening, but it is part of the process.
I’ve known so many people, myself included, who experienced powerful, wonderful awakenings followed by everything imaginable going wrong. Even within ourselves, it seemed like we suddenly slid backwards in evolution by a decade or two. If you don’t understand what’s happening it’s incredibly frustrating. You start to question the progress you’ve made and the blissful experiences you’ve enjoyed. Did they really happen? Or are you deluding yourself? There is a natural tendency to think you’ve done something wrong to lose your awakening and start looking for all the wrongness in yourself. If you’re going through this kind of experience right now, take a deep breath. It’s not you. It’s a side effect of awakening, and we all go through it.
There are only a handful of human beings for whom spiritual awakening was a one-time event, complete in that moment. For most of us it is an ongoing process, and it happens that way to reduce the shock that sudden awakening can cause. If all the contents of our subconscious were revealed in a single moment the mind and emotional system could not handle it and the energetic system would go into shock. Spiritual awakening, also known as ascension, is expansion of awareness. That expanded awareness includes everything in us, the truth and the illusions, the infinite possibilities and the limitations. When the beautiful stuff shows up we bask in it and want more of it, but when the ugly stuff shows up we tend to want to hide from it or stuff it back into the shadows. It is not in our best interest to do so.
When negative or low frequency qualities arise in us, in those close to us, or in our environment is an opportunity to be free of them. As much as it doesn’t feel like it at the time, it is a gift. The key is to look straight at whatever is arising. Pay attention to it. Ask what the root of it is, where it comes from. Find the belief underneath it and you can release it. When the belief is released, through awareness and understanding of it, what it creates will also be released. Releasing beliefs is a matter of choice but the power of that choice comes from awareness. We can’t release what we are unaware of.
If the crap is hitting the fan in your life and in your mind and emotions … congratulations! You are at a breakthrough point. It’s an opportunity to set yourself free from the limitations in your consciousness. Take charge of the chaos by looking straight at everything coming up. Your awareness is the light that dissolves the shadows. I recommend writing or typing out what you see as it helps surface the insight needed to understand it. When you discover a limiting belief, don’t be hard on yourself. It was the best choice you could make in the moment the belief formed. Instead, celebrate that you’ve seen it. Celebrate that you have the courage to look into your shadows. Celebrate the freedom you are giving to yourself now.