When we think about spiritual awakening we generally think of being in a state of bliss, light all around us, and a sense of knowing that surpasses knowledge. All of that does come with awakening but that’s not all. Awakening is an expansion of awareness. Some of that expansion reveals our true nature and qualities, perhaps even abilities we never had access to before. It also includes what has been hidden in the shadows of the subconscious. None of that is what we usually associate with awakening, but it is part of the process.
I’ve known so many people, myself included, who experienced powerful, wonderful awakenings followed by everything imaginable going wrong. Even within ourselves, it seemed like we suddenly slid backwards in evolution by a decade or two. If you don’t understand what’s happening it’s incredibly frustrating. You start to question the progress you’ve made and the blissful experiences you’ve enjoyed. Did they really happen? Or are you deluding yourself? There is a natural tendency to think you’ve done something wrong to lose your awakening and start looking for all the wrongness in yourself. If you’re going through this kind of experience right now, take a deep breath. It’s not you. It’s a side effect of awakening, and we all go through it.